April has a tear in her eye, "I know I shouldn't have had the abortion. I should have taken full responsibility and only listened to my heart.  When they tried to tell me that it wasn't a child yet, I should have realized that was wrong.  More than anyone, I should have known better ...I could feel the baby inside me.  I should have realized my child was a blessing, not a burden. Yes, my boyfriend should have been equally responsible, but it's not a matter of half and half responsible. Each person should be 100% responsible for their part in anything. And I want to change all that; I want to start over ...life will be different next time."

I feel sorry for her, "That's because you let your emotions teach you. Others become hardened, and take up the cause to promote more of the wrong.  Right now, you are having similar emotions that are telling you that it's right to love me, and that I need that too.  But you don't understand the biggest part of love ...that once again would tell you it's wrong ...and this applies to you, too, Frank.  April, you said you feel my family has broken the commitment, and you were probably mostly meaning my wife, not me who has broken it. Well, it's often like that with abortion too. One person usually backs out of the commitment of their responsibility, but if the other continues to do what they should know is right, the other may come around and realize what they should do also. Like with my marriage ...this may be a phase, and they may eventually come around. But, the bottom line is, our marriage was not just our commitment to hold onto.  It is not just a commitment between two people or whether they want to hold onto it.  It is a commitment we make that is sanctioned by God.  God created marriage between a man and a woman."

Frank adds, "You are asking me to totally re-think my whole life?"

I kindly remind him, "That's kind of what you did when you first came to the conclusion that you felt you were gay.  This may make it easier, or it may make it more difficult for you, but I've already spoken with the groundskeeper.  He is going to get back together with his wife ...and try to get their life back together.  He asked me to mention it to you, because he didn't know quite what to say."

April cries, "I know what to say ...you are a wonderful man!"

I get a tear in my eye, how can I not.  I try to regain my composure, "April, you need to re-think it too. Don't let your emotions rule.  You have beautiful emotions ...but let God guide, as you have when re-thinking and realizing the wrong of abortion.  It is great that you are looking for a man of character ...and I appreciate the fact that you think so well of me, but you must keep your emotions in check and be patient ...saving them for the man God will reveal to you.  I am so shook up too, I don't think I can quote it correctly, but the Bible says something about the grass withering and the flower fading ...but the Word of God lasts forever."

April cries more, "How has that worked for you?  Are you happy?"

I take a deep breath, "It's not always about happiness.  It is usually about finding love ...not in a person, but often in the hurt.  I supposed my family is going through a phase, finding joy in new things and exciting freedoms, but that will fade like the flower ...and my gentle flowers will need me ---and I will be there.  Right now, I need not to feel the hurt and the pain of the present, but to realize that God is there ---He is always there."

April admits, "When I first came to this job, I admired you as my boss. I see how you represent everything I've hoped for, and I've been secretly hoping something would develop. It didn't matter whether you were married. But now I see how wrong that is! And I admire you even more now.  I don't want your little girl Amanda to grow up thinking like I did; and attempting to find love in all the wrong places."

Frank still has a tear in his eye also, "This is so much to take all at once. I am really hurting inside.  But I'm not the only one.  I can sense what you are feeling too, April.  I don't know how much good any of us would be around here today, so if your boss will give you the rest of today off, I'd like to have lunch with you ...and perhaps talk a little more."