April adds, "I think I know how you feel, Frank.  We are all so fragile, and we try to act confident to hide our real emotions.  I guess I felt so betrayed by a friend I felt so intimate with, that I wanted to be with my boss ...thinking I could cover the betrayal by being with someone honorable; someone I could tell really liked me, not just wanted me."

Franks looks down, then raises tearful eyes to April, "I guess that's what I was doing.  I felt like I wanted someone to desire me ...though I think I'd be better off with someone I never thought I'd desire.  Perhaps it's best I be with someone I feel I like as a person.  And it's time I stop being afraid of being rejected.  I hear what you're saying ...my family sort of said it too, but I wasn't ready to listen to them, and maybe I'd never be. It's time I stop rejecting God's way ...and just trust Him to guide my emotions once I choose His way."

April smiles, "If you are trying to ask if we can be friends ...sure, if you don't feel embarrassed with being with someone who has struggled with her identity."

Frank laughs, "Struggling with an identity ...that's me.  If you don't feel embarrassed being with someone like me, I'd like to be a better friend to you.  If God wants marriage to be what He had designated it to be ...with one man and one woman, in marriage, one time, well, I should give it a chance.  I may be tempted so intensely to do things otherwise, but I want to put God first ...and obey, living according to what He has set up for me. Is it as simple as that?"

April sits silent for a moment, "Slow down ...I know this is a huge step for us both ...and probably, especially you, but let's be friends first, before we start considering other things."

Frank asks, "Weren't you emotionally reaching that point with your boss?  I'd say we are friends, so don't be scared to talk about it.  I'm not suggesting we should jump into it, but what's wrong with talking about it?  When I look at my parent's marriage, I admit there are difficult times. And much I don't understand.  But I do now understand that marriage is not about me, it's about God. God will provide it for me, just as Adam and Eve were provided for. And if it seems that someone more entreating comes along, it doesn't matter.  Just because I've considered myself gay doesn't mean I don't know how good looking you are.  I know you are an attractive girl, and though that usually makes me feel a bit uncomfortable ...with you, I strangely don't feel uncomfortable.  That's probably because I haven't met anyone as nice as you. "

April just sits quietly and considers what Frank is saying.

Frank adds, "Well, with my complex messed up mind, it may not be as simple as that, but I'm willing to try. Do you think we should find a church, or something?  Now, don't get all emotional on me; I'm not talking wedding bells ...I just think that maybe I should learn a bit more about the One who has designed us ...and this other stuff I'm not that familiar with."